I love the winter...

A little under a week ago, Le Sserafim posted this cover of Selena's "Amor Prohibido" alongside a cute MV.

OK, firstly, kudos to them for tackling one of the most well-known songs for a Tejano LEGEND. Secondly, they did AMAZING--especially when it came to rolling their r's! Finally, it's pretty clear that they understood and respected the song AND Selena's legacy. <3 to my FIMMIES.

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Re-Reads. HUH.

None for now.


I DNF'd

I actually finished everything I started. O__O


Had an awesome time at first (but it all went downhill from there)

* Away Games by Misha Horne (M/M Romance) - A 35k novella that takes place a few months after the ending of Book 2. It has too much football (including an excess of practice and game scenes). The last chapter is a ridic (yet sweet) long porny scene between Caleb and Logan that segues into them talking abt their futures post-high school.

To me, the whole thing read like an epilogue draft since it didn't add anything new to Logan and Caleb's story and it wasn't far enough in the future (say, during their second year of university) to make any kind of impact. I gave this a 2 out of 5.


* She Didn't See It Coming by Shari LaPena (Mystery) - Bryden is happily married to Sam. They have pretty good careers, are the parents of a sweet 3-y.o., and seem to have a fab life. That is, until Bryden disappears...

Extremely readable novel. Good writing (no typos or weird turn of phrases.) Having read most of this author's books, I knew that I was in for domestic suspense, a whole lotta POVs (10 different characters in this novel), and some O___o kind of drama.

I wasn't AS taken with the mystery as I was with the MESSINESS of everything else.

Starting with 2 super chaotic evil characters who were fun to read abt. Even though they gave me the impression to have come in from a totally different book. There's also a 3rd character whose life went off the rails at some point...and that whole thing was never resolved?

Finally, a fourth character had a v. late in the book turn that made me ?????. And, to explain why, I gotta

dive into FULL SPOILERS

This fourth character is not only an abuser, but also a functional drug addict (Oxycontin). This is revealed in the next-to-last chapter and grants that character a full alibi (?!). This character--who has their own POV chapters--is never shown to be thinking abt drugs and/or getting high nor experience any type of physical withdraw from, again, their everyday usage.

It was v. odd that there were no hints abt this from the fourth character or anyone else who also had POVs. This was so UNBELIEVABLE that I 🙄 as the book came to a close.

Had I not been familiar with this author's usual style and that I had borrowed this from the library, I'd have probably DNF'd this book. Although I'm not quite putting this author on 'reader probation' yet, I will reconsider after reading whatever she publishes next. I gave this a 2.3 out of 5.


* Those We Run From by Fiona Zedde (F/F Romantic Suspense) - After finding out that Tilly, her ex-girlfriend from 20 or years ago, is on a hit list, almost-retired assassin Sterling heads to Miami to protect her and find out who wants her ex dead...

OTOH, this book had a v. diverse (in terms of race, sexuality, and gender) cast. I also really liked that the majority of the characters were 39+ years old. Oh, and the author can write actions scenes (including gunfights, knife fights, etc.) really well. She's got a knack for timing and describing the goings on.

OTOH, I had three issues with this 120-page novella.

1. The worldbuilding was incomplete. This story takes place in Miami (FL), the Bahamas, and southern Georgia. But there was no actual sense of place. Like, whenever the story moved to Miami, characters would inevitably think or say "wow, it's so hot/humid." And that was abt it. Same with the Bahamas.

2. Given the premise, i was ready for some goofiness plotwise. But then, a little near the halfway point, when the reason why Tilly has been targeted is revealed, the book moves on permanently to DEEPLY UNSERIOUS LAND. I mentally threw my hands in the air and said "I guess?!", NGL.

3. This last thing is the main reason why I gave it such a low ranking. This involves a mild spoiler w/r/t one of the MCs, but I don't consider it worthy of hiding behind a spoiler tag. Though, again, this is gonna be a MILD SPOILER.

So it turns out that Tilly has a twin sister named Nora. They've never gotten along and it's been a while since they've spoken with each other.

The book never uses words like autistic, autism, etc. However, it's clear that Nora is neurodivergent. The issue is the extremely negative way autism is shown. Especially when the chapter is from Tilly's POV.

Examples from Chapter 21 after Nora shows up. This is 100% from Tilly's POV (Emphasis mine):

It was bizarre seeing her sister again. Hearing her talk. They were identical in looks, but in temperament, in the way they processed things, were as different as dawn and midday. No doctor had been able to explain why. Nora was the analytical and brilliant one their parents never stopped praising. The one who was an ice cube but excelled at everything academic from her very first exam.

They start talking:

Tilly swallowed a few times. "What exactly do you mean by showing up here?"

"I made a gamble I shouldn't have and didn't factor in that I might have been gambling with your life, too." Nora faintly grimaced.

The scream crawled higher in Tilly's throat. "you talking to me like a robot isn't making the situation clearer."

"This is how i talk. There is no other way I can express myself."

That much was true. Tilly let out another sigh. [...]"

And the conversation continues with Nora talking and Tilly being judgy and on the defensive for no reason at all. The book does show Nora interacting with other characters just fine? There's one specific (but v., v. spoilery) convo Nora has with another character in which the other character never remarks on how 'odd' or 'robot-like' Nora is talking to them. So it's basically a Tilly-only issue, IMO.

At best, the way this book approaches a neurodivergent character is quite off-putting and, at worst, is truly worrisome and weird.

On top of that, it simply does not make any sense that Tilly, a 39-y.o. character who works with a variety of clients (she's a boudoir photographer) AND who has a really colorful group of friends AND gives the impression of being quite a worldly character wouldn't know or even consider the existence of autism. Especially in relation to her twin sister. Keep in mind that the story takes place in our world in contemporary times. That's all I'm saying.

ETA: I think I wouldn't have had as much of a problem if one of two things had happened:

1. If Tilly and Nora had been raised in an ultraconservative and super religious community. Since those types of groups tend to avoid/disregard anything that wouldn't be considered "normal".

OR

2. If the story has been set anywhere in the 1970s to 1980s. At those times, the general population's awareness of ADHD, dislexia, autism, etc was v. limited and prejudiced.

But that's not what happened here.


FTR, I was super grossed out by this part of the story, but it was such a short novella that I ended up. No idea if I'll read anything else by this author. I gave this a 1 out of 5.


Good vibes all around

* Comfort Me, Daddy by Misha Horne (M/M Romance) - the 444-age sequel to Hurt Me, Daddy. Logan has moved in with Caleb. There's a big chemistry test he HAS to pass if he wants his scholarship to continue AND some v. important football games he's gotta train for...

The writing continued to be good (no typos, no weird turn of phrase, etc.). There was enough space in the book for Logan to get some more character development. Which isn't to say that he became suddenly mature, but that he had changed (for the better) when it came to his self-esteem and relation to the world. Another thing that was v. clear was how much care this author had in creating all of the characters. Logan, Caleb, Walker, Ellis, and the rest of the guys had distinct personalities and behaviors and that made all of their interactions pretty interesting to follow along.

Most of the Logan/Caleb scenes (both in and out of bed) were fun and/or spicy.

OTOH, the author could've deleted 100-150 pages. Like, the author could've gotten rid of 8 or so chapters (out of 40) and tightened the story a lot.

Then there's a late-in-the-book dramarama involving Logan's mother. It felt kinda spliced into the book because there hadn't been anything working up to it. That said, I figured the author felt it necessary to give Logan some kind of closure regarding that aspect of his life? IDK.

Finally, I finished the book feeling quite dissatisfied with Caleb as an MC. There was so happening (and a lot of it being terrible) to Logan in the first book, that Caleb's steady and focused presence was v. welcomed. However, this book really showed that Caleb (both as a Daddy and as himself) had an infinite amount of patience (as well as all of the answers, I guess.) It flattened him as a character. I wish there had been at least one scene, moment, chapter in which Caleb had an off/bad day. If only to balance out all of the scenes of him being the perfect boyfriend.

Because, even though his care, love, and support of Logan made him a likable character, he didn't have anything else to him as a person. YMMV. I gave this book a 3.5 out of 5.


Current fic tally

Have picked up 160 fics, DNF'd 78


Some Thoughts

Not much in terms of satisfying reads, but I'm not actively regretting picking up most of the books (I still 😒 at Those We Run From, tho.) Thankfully, i have avoided falling into a reading slump, so I'm calling this a win (of sorts, LOL.)


Up Next...

Last time: "I'm now halfway thru the second book of the "The Brat and The Beast" duology, a mystery/thriller, a queer femdom (?) M/F set in space, and a historical paranormal that is NOT cozy."

Finished the first two books, am halfway thru the third one (which is NOT set in space)--though IDK if I'll finish it, and ended up renewing the fourth book before it was due back to the library. I'm also in the middle of another book which is the last one in a series. 🤞🏾 for good reading ahead!

I feel like something within me has been unlocked cuz I've been picking up (and actually reading!) more books now than I did during the earlier part of the year. WHO AM I? XD

Re-reads. HUH

* All About All About Eve: The Complete Behind-the-Scenes Story of the Bitchiest Film Ever Made! by Sam Staggs (non-fiction) - This is a v. comprehensive (and at times exhaustive book on anything and everything you'd ever want to know abt All About Eve, a 1950s classic movie and one of my top faves of all time.

I got this book as a gift (from an ex) back in 2001, read it, loved it then. However, it got damaged cuz my previous home got termites. My library recommended it to me (I guess cuz I'd been adding classic film books to my library TBR?) and I said "sure, let me enjoy it once again!"

One thing I appreciated was Staggs' writing style: friendly, gossipy, and thorough. His book covers everything from the short story the movie is based on (he even interviewed the author) to the movie itself (from pre-production onwards) including details on EVERYONE down to secondary and background characters and then the movie's position within general Western pop culture. FWIW, I really liked the first two-thirds (as I'd forgotten some of the details and so, at times, it felt like I was almost reading it for the first time.) However, the book dips in yays during its last third with the exception of one specific chapter. I got the sense that Staggs wanted to cover EVERY aspect related to this movie. BUT it did dragged...except for the next-to-last chapter on camp and the LGTBQ+ community's connection to this film.

At this point, I doubt I'll give it another read, but I deffo rec this for fans of this movie and/or classic Hollywood movies. I gave this 4 out of 5.


I DNF'd

* The Wild Girls Club: Tales from Below the Belt by Anka Radakovich (non-fiction) - [NB: this was actually my second re-read of the month, but I think it fits better in this section.] OK, so I'm not going to assume that everyone knows who this woman is so, here's a quick note abt her. An older Gen x-er, she was (all thru the 1990s and into the v. early part of the 2000s) one of THE sex advice columnists in the US. IIRC, her column (in Details, a men's magazine) started around 1992-ish? This led to her appearing on a lot of TV shows from those airing on MTV to less youth-oriented networks. Her candidness and snark made her appear edgier than, say, Dear Abby.

I borrowed this book back in early 1995 from the library and enjoyed it a ton. This is a collection of essays on sex, dating, and romance. Oh, and there's a bonus section where she interviews dudes like Joe Pesci, Norman Mailer, Russ Meyer, and John Waters.

My library happened to still have a copy of the book, so I borrowed it again...and DNF'd pretty early on, hahah.

For starters, this was a verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry early '90s book in tone (and I'm saying that in a derrogatory way.) The humor was crass and sexist (on purpose), the references were incredibly dated, and Radakovich gave off a "I'm not like those other (ultra-femme, mainstream, Barbie-fied) girls" vibe that made me legit 😬. Oh, and she loooooved using the R-slur more than enough times for me to go "OK, I'M DONE WITH THIS!" around the second story in Chapter 1. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

But not before I skipped ahead to the interviews section and ended up CRINGING ALL OVER AGAIN. This is why I'm NOT a nostalgic person at all, hahah. In any case, with this, I can end my impromptu journey into "books I read in the 1990s-early 2000s" that has happened this year. *Happily waves goodbye to that era*

I gave this book a 1.6 out of 5.


* Make Room for Love by Darcy Liao (F/F Contemporary Romance) - Mira is an Indian-American trans woman who ends up as a temporary roommate of Isabel, a Chinese-American electrician. Both of the women have some stuff to deal with (for Mira is realizing that she's also attracted to women while for Isabel is abt dealing with the loss of a sibling.)

I'd been wanting to read this novel since I first heard abt it back in May of this year (it was first published last fall, IIRC.) I did liked that the MCs were in their 30s (and behaved like actual!adults), they had work responsibilities, and had a neat simpatico going on.

The first of the two issues I had with this book was that it's a character-driven novel and I'm a plot girlie. This meant that the pacing was slower than I liked and reading abt their internal conflicts felt, at times, like watching a dog chase its tail.

Then there's the OTHER thing that ultimately killed my enthusiasm for the book.

Before I go into that, let me state for the record that I am fiercely PRO-UNION. I think they're cool and much needed (especially nowadays.) HOWEVAH, the B-plot was abt Mira (who is a PhD candidate) trying to establish a graduate student union at her university. Which, yays for everyone. Unfortch, this overtook the main plot to the point that if I had to read one more scene of Mira practicing for a speech she'd give at a rally, I would end up throwing my tablet across the room. The romance took a backseat and I was NOT happy abt that. (I did hear--through reading others' reviews--that the plot focuses back on Mira/Isabel (including some v. hot times), but even that wasn't enough to lure me back.)

I'd picked up this book with the hopes to read abt Mira and Isabel falling for each other + smooches. But, in order to get to that part of this romance novel, I'd have to read page after page abt organizing. FWIW, I'm sure other readers ate all of that (and probably wish there had been MORE pages written abt the union stuff), but that's not me. *Hands* I gave this book 2 out of 5.


* Murder in the Dressing Room by Holly Stars (Cozy mystery) - Misty Divine becomes an amateur sleuth after Lady Lady, her drag mother, is murdered.

This had a kickass premise and the bonus that Misty is a nonbinary person in their mid-30s. FTR, I did catch glimpses/moments in the story that made me go "oooh".

Sadly, though, this book committed the ultimate sin: BAD WRITING!

For starters, between telling and showing, the author opted to go with the former. And, listen, I'm not a "telling" hater because I know that it has a purpose. In the case of this book, it was overused to the point that it really dulled what should've been an amazing mystery.

And then, there was the repetition.

[Context: this is a description of what Misty, the protagonist, is wearing at the club. Emphasis mine.]

"Tonight, she was all in red: a red off-the-shoulder minidress with a sweeping neckline and hems so high she was more leg than skirt, red crystal jewelry that dripped from each ear and across her chest, and sequined scarlet heels so tall they were known affectionately in the business as "ankle breakers". Thankfully, Misty's ankles were still intact, despite stiletto-related injuries in the drag business seemingly at an all-time high."

SMH.

I gave this 1 out of 5.


Had an awesome time at first (but it all went downhill from there)

So far, I either really like OR hate everything I've started. XD


Good vibes all around

* Hurt Me, Daddy (The Brat and The Beast book 1) by Misha Horne (M/M romance) - In danger of failing chemistry (and losing his football scholarship), high school senior Logan ends up getting tutored by the v. nerdy Caleb, a.k.a Beast (so nicknamed cuz of his height.) If, at some point, their relationship becomes kinky, well... (NB: pardon the bad summary!)

OK, so this is one of those authors whose catalogue I've almost read in its entirety. I approached this first book in a new duology with trepidation. The last book of hers I'd read (Snowed in with Benefits) was quite meh. That said, I'm always interested in whatever she publishes cuz she writes one specific premise and does it WELL: romances abt a bratty sub and the dom (sometimes a Daddy, sometimes not) who uses a combo of spanking and Domestic Discipline (with some mild humiliation for extra sprinkles, I guess) to help the subs better their lives.

It's kinda funny how much this book reminded me of this author's Old School Discipline (the first book by her I ever read and which I loved) because of the set-up and the MCs' ages. There's also the fact that the premise can potentially border on ridiculous, so readers have to make up their minds v. quickly as to whether or not they're game with what happens on the page.

FTR, I read this 272-page novel one in a day.

The entire book is told from Logan's POV (in first person). Though at times suffocating (Logan's life has been a really tough one and he's on the edge of self-sabotaging himself for good), his brashness and humor (sarcastic as it might be) make for a really engaging story. He's hurting and what looks like his only way out of a terrible situation is slipping thru his fingers.

Enter Caleb, a.k.a. Beast, who offers him an alternative that seems almost too good to be true. At first, thru unconventional teaching methods and then, thru becoming his Daddy. It's easy to understand Logan's wariness (since we're in his head all along) after Caleb offers to provide him with anything he'd need. OTOH, it also makes total sense that Caleb's steadiness and single-mindedness (perhaps to an OTT level) are exactly what Logan needs to keep on living.

I liked that the author didn't shy away from their fractured backstory. Also, the angst (though heavy at times) was never so overwhelming as to make me stop reading. OFC, the second half of the book brings in the comfort (especially the last 3-4 chapters.) IF said relief includes a serving of kink, well, there we are. XD

As expected, the intimate scenes are fun, filthy, and weirdly sweet. There are readers who might have an issue with Caleb being the kind of Daddy Dom who knows exactly what his bratty boy needs. Especially because, like Logan, he's only 19 y.o. I understand wanting to know WHERE AND WHEN exactly did Caleb learned abt the kink lifestyle, trained under, etc. NGL, that was NOT me cuz I truly didn't care as this is a fictional story. I was also cheering for these two and their FREAK4FREAK relationship (the latter is meant in how there's literally no one else in the entire world that would understand and accept each other the way Logan/Caleb do.)

One of the main reasons why I enjoyed this novel was that the writing was solid from beginning to end: no typos, no weird turn of phrases/slang, no Pop Culture commentary, and pacing issues.

THAT SAID, there were two things that lowered the ranking for me:

1. The novel ends v. abruptly and in a kind of soft cliffhanger. Things get resolved in chapter 1 of the second novel. My best guess is that the author wrote a massive novel that then she split into two. [NB: this is somewhat confirmed as I'm reading Book 2 right now. It deffo feels like one long book split in half.] I didn't mind this as much as others did cuz I already had gotten the second book and the novella, hahah. I WAS IN IT TO WIN IT!

2. There are only 2 female characters and they're HORRIBLE PPL. What's even stranger abt them is that they're both addicts and behave inappropriately with young male adults. In the case of Logan's mom, she's an abusive and neglectful parent. As for Walker's mom, she's an alcoholic who clings to her cougar status to an embarrassing level. It's interesting that they're both at opposite ends of the socioeconomic strata (Logan's mom is an exotic dancer (and potential escort?) who is poor while Walker's mom has a much more affluent life.)

In any case, like most of this author's books, women tend to be either evil bitches (in this novel's case also terrible mothers) or nonexistent. I wish she's publish a novel with at least one solid female character. Alas.

I gave this book 4 out of 5/


Current fic tally

Have picked up 155 and DNF'd 76.


Up next...

Last time: "I've got a non-fiction, a biography, and a couple more of queer romances on my immediate TBR."

Ended up returning the non-fiction cuz my brain was NOT in the mood. Also returned the biography since there are other things I want to get to first. I'm now halfway thru the second book of the "The Brat and The Beast" duology, a mystery/thriller, a queer femdom (?) M/F set in space, and a historical paranormal that is NOT cozy. So a little bit of everything, heheh. Fingers crossed that the Reading Yays continue.