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Wednesday, January 1st, 2020 12:20 am

I'm also posting at
InsaneJournal: winterlover, but not so much Bandom-related stuff

My fic and art can be found at
Archive Of Our Own (AO3): winterlover

Transformative Works Statement )
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Saturday, January 7th, 2017 12:13 am
[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 6

In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your wish-list if you feel comfortable doing so. Maybe someone will grant a wish. Check out other people's posts. Maybe you will grant a wish.

I'm leaving this blank for now. Not sure about my own wishes.

*goes to check out others' entries*

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Friday, January 6th, 2017 12:59 am
[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 5

In your own space, post recs for at least three fanworks that you did not create.

This is an easy and a difficult task for me. Easy because everything I'm reccing I really love, but also difficult, because HOW TO CHOOSE ONLY THREE?
Oh well, I'll try:

1) [personal profile] turlough's knitting is something that I always admire, but her contribution to Bandom Big Bang this year was the best:
Welcome to the Black (Cat) Parade are knitted MCR-kittens! They're so cute and so well done, up to the uniforms, or the eye-makeup, they were one of my highlights of this year's BBB.

2) I must admit I didn't have time to read all [community profile] bandom_holidays entries yet. But I read "Soon The Bells Will Start" by Jiksa and loved it. It's a funny story about misunderstandings around Christmas resulting in - or not resulting in (no spoilers! ;-)) - a threesome.

3) "Front Row Seats" by LadySmutterella, illustrations by johanirae is a great story about animal transformation which I had expected to be fluffy and funny, but after I had read half of it, I had giggled a lot but also teared up a few times already. A very emotional story that I was very impressed with. The illustrations are brilliant as well.

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Friday, January 6th, 2017 12:57 am
[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 4

Comment to someone you haven't ever interacted with before or introduce yourself to someone you've interacted with and friend/follow them.

I'll try doing so during the next days.

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Friday, January 6th, 2017 12:52 am
[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 3

In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private.

Most of the goals I set myself for the new year are private. Fannish-wise I'll just wait until inspiration comes its way. Because creating then always gives me the most satisfaction.

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Thursday, January 5th, 2017 07:26 pm
[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 2

In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul.

I really don't know if how I am made me fan of the things I am a fan of, or if being a fan of those things made me the way I am now.

Because this journal is mostly about me and bandom, I want to share a bandom-epos that was one of the first longer fics and AUs that I read when I started reading bandom-fic. I did read it on a jounal (LJ or DW?), but recently looked for a download on AO3, and yay, it's there, too!

"Screaming Down the Starlit Sky", a Vampire-AU by herlovewasajoke and reena_jenkins probably features every bandom-person that existed at that time it was written. And Adam Lambert. I guess that's how I found it, because at that time I had been looking mostly for Adam Lambert-fic.

The series is made of 16 parts and based on the video for A Little Less Sixteen Candles, a Little More "Touch Me" by Fall Out Boy. I didn't know most of the bands or people, didn't know the video, but was captured by the story. After that I looked for more and more bandom-fic. So my life as a reader was changed.

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Thursday, January 5th, 2017 02:10 am
I'm late, but that's what happens when I spend New Years Eve at friends and then time at my parents. I had great fun there but no time for memes. But I don't want to miss this year, so here we go:

[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 1

In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator.

I always liked to rec fics from the last year, but when I look back at 2016, there are actually only three works that I posted over the last 12 months, starting only in September.

But I do like them, so they will be my recs:

1) 100 Ways To Say “I Love You” (not really 100, actually)
It's a collection of drabbles in the Killjoys-universe (bandom) inspired by 100 prompts. I only used 17 in the end, but I quite like how those drabbles turned out to paint a bigger picture of the Killjoys' lives in the desert.

2) Speaking of pictures - for Bandom Big Bang I created Art for "No Future In Our Dreaming" by Prophetic. I was very inspired by the story and my love for London, so I made some art from photographs I had actually taken myself in London over the years.

3) Last, but definitely not least, I took part in Drabble Day 2016 where I wrote drabbles for 10 different fandoms (The Lord of the Rings, Sherlock, Bandom, Star Wars, Fear the Walking Dead, Please Like Me, My Mad Fat Diary, Harry Potter, Doctor Who, Alles was zählt) in 12 hours. That was great fun and an inspiring end to the year.
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Saturday, December 31st, 2016 11:59 pm
A post by [personal profile] akamine_chan made me check out [personal profile] hamsterwoman's
Communally Sourced Reading Bingo

I'm curious which squares the books will fit that I'll read, and I might use the cards for inspiration when choosing the next book to read.

Cards and rules under the cut )
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Monday, November 7th, 2016 11:56 pm
I can understand why some people might not like to read drabbles. They're - short. Well, that's it. Because everything else about drabbles is brillant. But yes, they are short. Of course I too like to read thousands of words about my favourite pairing, so 100 words, because that's the kind of drabble I mean, are not enough.

But that's also why I love to write drabbles. It's a challenge to put all you need to say for a short story in so little words. It can be full of crack, like a joke, it can be sensual, like a small poem.

Speaking of challenge - last week I took part in Drabble Day 2016. For half a day we received a different prompt every hour, and then we would write drabbles until the next prompt was up. Then we would write more drabbles. Never had a day passed that quickly - well, at least since Drabble Day 2012.

- My Drabble Day 2016 drabbles are here on AO3 -

I wrote two bandom-drabbles: one in the Killjoy-universe and one P!itD, but also lots of other fandoms.
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Thursday, September 1st, 2016 11:08 pm
On September 1st the Bring Back The Porn Challenge takes place on Insane Journal. While it's not the first over here anymore, it certainly still is somewhere on this planet.

I came across this writing challenge through [personal profile] ragingrainbow ’s journal a few weeks ago. And because I was supposed to make graphics for BBB, of course I felt inspired to write some drabbles.

One of those drabbles is a bit explicit, so I'm posting everything that I wrote on AO3, and Chapter 14 will be linked for BBTP.

Title: 100 Ways To Say “I Love You” (not really 100, actually)

Author: [personal profile] winterlover 
Bandom, Killjoys Universe
Word Count: 100
Rating: mature
Summary: see title
Warnings/Spoilers: usual Killjoys-related violence
Author's Notes: I don’t own any of those characters. They belong to themselves. Nothing I write about has actually happened. Except when it has. But I wouldn’t know.

Love in these drabbles is romantic love, brotherly love, friendship and love of family. In addition to not letting the characters directly say “I love you”, I also tried to avoid to incorporate the words of the “title” into the drabbles. Sometimes the “titles” are interpreted very widely which is necessary when the story is set in a post apocalyptic world.

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Saturday, April 30th, 2016 08:33 pm
I read a book today that I bought because I really liked the cover: "Auerhaus" by Bov Bjerg.

It was a quick and easy read, I liked the writing style. I guess that's how an 18 year old guy would tell his story.

It fits in the following Bingo Squares:

Card 1 - Mix and Match: no fit

Card 2 - Random: "Book with a red cover" 
The cover is a reddish orange with white drawings of a raincloud and a cloud that covers the sun. I like that the square is about the cover because this is the main reason I noticed that book.
The cover is much cuter than the story itself which is about six friends in their last year of school who live together in a house. Because their (German) neighbours misunderstood the title of "Our House" by Madness is the reason why their home is called "Auerhaus".

Card 3 - Serious: "Book where main male and female characters don't fall in love"
Yes, the first person narrator and one of the girls are together when they move into the house, but they rather fall out of love in the end. Other characters have sex with each other, but this or love-relationships are not the main focus in the book. It's about friendship and about reasons to live or not, about the time in your life when you don't know what you want to become and are more sure about what you don't want.

[Link to my cards and main Bingo post]

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Friday, April 22nd, 2016 10:38 pm
I was not a big fan, but of course I was shocked to hear about his untimely death.

Still there are two things that have stuck in my mind:

1) When I was in the US for the first (and only) time in 1986 around Easter during a school exchange, there was "Kiss" on the radio, like every time I got in a car.
I still think of Columbus, Ohio, whenever I hear that song.

2) This suit:

RIP Prince. RIP Prince's ass. <3
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Sunday, February 14th, 2016 08:16 pm
Last weekend and this one I tried to read books again instead of online-fic. (I did read fic as well.)

First I chose the most recent book of German TV presenter Sarah Kuttner, called "180° Meer" (There's no English translation (yet?)).

It fits in the following Bingo Squares:

Card 1 - Mix and Match: "Book by an author who's first language isn't English"
[As mentioned above, the author is German and that's the language the book is in. Does that count? Should the book be written in English to fit that square? I don't care.]

Card 2 - Random: "Book written by someone famous for things other than writing" 
[Sarah Kuttner was a presenter on German's first music television station. Since then she had done her own talkshows and created as well as moderated other TV shows.]

Card 3 - Serious: "Book not in English"
[Yes, I know, it's almost the same as the square in card 1, but who cares?]

I translated this from goodreads:
"After her father left the family, Jule grew up with her brother and suicidal mother. As an adult now she has created a life where she just endures everything: her job as singer, the countless phonecalls of her mother, the whole hate in herself which almost makes her disappear. When her relationship starts to crumble she flees to England to stay with her brother, searching for quiet and anonymity.
Here she meets her dying father. Jule starts a last attempt of approach the man who she felt has let her down her whole life.
A tragic-comic road-novel about the complicated relationship with one's own parents and the wish to take a break from oneself."

I don't think this is a road-novel. She lives in Berlin and takes a plane to London, then goes by train to Eastbourne. While she writes about her thoughts on train-journeys, everything that happens, happens at her destinations. That said, there's not a lot of plot anyway.

I didn't like the main character at all, but that might be intended as she doesn't like herself much. And even if she decides to go home in the end, I don't feel much change in her.

Two questions at the end:
1) Who stays more than two days in London and buys Tube-tickets? Wouldn't she have an Oyster card? Especially when it's not the first time she has visited her brother?
2) Where at Oxford Street are street musicians trying to drown out each other's acoustic guitars? Not sure if I ever saw one there. Maybe way down near Bond Street? Hmm.

I gave it three stars on Goodreads, but feel closer to two and a half.

Yesterday and today I read "Glück ist eine Gleichung mit 7" ("Counting with 7s") by Holly Goldberg Sloan.

It fits in the following Bingo Squares:

Card 1 - Mix and Match: "Book by an author or protagonist of colour"
[The main character, Willow is a poc. She describes her skin and hair multiple times. In the story though I don't think her skin colour is of matter. She never experiences blatant racism, except maybe when she notes that being adopted would be more difficult for her. But she still blames mostly her age for that.]

Card 2 - Random: "Book heavily featuring kids" 
[The main character is 12 years old and most parts of the book are told from her point of view.]

Card 3 - Serious: "Book with protagonist with a mental/social disability"
[That may be debatable. Her soical worker rates her as "genius", but her way of thinking and how she behaves clearly shows that she doesn't fit into the "normal" behaviour pattern of the kids at her school. She knows she's different and doesn't even try to fit in most of the time.]

I liked Willow Chance way better than the main character from the other book above. Even though I have read multiple stories about high intelligent and therefore strange kids and how they change everyone's life to the better, this one did it charmingly and made me chuckle more than once. I also liked that some of the chapters were looks into the minds of the other characters, told in 3rd person.

I agree with some of the critique on goodreads that the end turned out a bit too good and seemed a bit rushed, but I enjoyed reading the book nevertheless.

P.S. Where's the Bingo-square for "Bought the book mainly for the pretty cover"? That would have been fitting here.

[Link to my cards and main Bingo post]

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Saturday, January 16th, 2016 05:53 pm

[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 15

Talk about what you're taking away from this challenge. Did you learn something? Did you interact with new people? Or did you try out different fandoms or formats or relationships? What's changed between Day 1 and Day 15 of this challenge?

Although I'm done all the entries for the challenge, I haven't finished looking at other people's contributions.

For me this year's challenge mostly was introspective, remebering last year and seeing if there were changes of how I do fandom.
I enjoyed how many people started posting on their journal again and I'm looking forward to future interactions.

Thanks to everyone who looked at my journal, but mostly thanks to the lovely and enthusiastic mods! <3

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Saturday, January 16th, 2016 05:37 pm

[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 14

Share your love for something fannish: a trope, cliché, kink, motif, theme, format, or fandom.

What I like most about band (or group-) stories is the gang-mentality, which includes the found-family trope. I even love "curtainfic" where they just are at home with their dogs.

Being a single child I never had the siblings-experience. It was a good thing to be able to send the kids home after I was exhausted by them, but I never got very close to other people because of that, too.

So reading fic about gangs, bands, close friends who are together most of their lives and have fun, fight, pine and love is what I like to do.

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Saturday, January 16th, 2016 05:00 pm

[community profile] snowflake_challenge - Day 13

Post a rec for at least three fanworks that you did not create. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

What have I read recently (i.e. last year) that impressed me or made an impact?

1) "Document" by azurejay (and chimeras)
Bandom, Fall Out Boy
23.910 words
Summary: The one where Patrick is not a girl.

I read this after I'd seen a documentary about a trans tenager, and lots of the personal subjects of that doc I found in that fic again. Combined with brilliant writing and "boys on tour" I enjoyed reading it very much.

2) "That one regret is you" by thescrewtapedemos
Bandom, Panic At The Disco
13.969 words
Summary: There’s a witch living way out in the woods (that’s Spencer) and there’s someone running blindly through said woods (that’s Brendon) and that’s about where the similarity to a fairytale ends (there’s a cauldron but Spencer only uses it to make soup so Brendon’s pretty sure it doesn’t count).

Citing my own comment: "Your summary had me already, but then your story turned out not only funny, but also heart-wrenching and really lovely.
I'm glad I found it."

3) "Six Years On" by speakingwosound (sev313)
One Direction (Band)
46.582 words
Summary: All it takes is Harry standing in his doorway and Louis remembers, in technicolor, why he’s spent so long being angry and guilty. Because the alternative – the bone-deep, missing-a-lung, constant ache of missing him – is unbearable.
Six years after One Direction breaks up, Harry wants to publish a tell-all book.

Yes, my journey through AO3 from author to author to author's bookmarks has also lead me to One Direction fic. Although I'm not keen on their music, only know about three songs, have avoided to look at many pictures online, I enjoyed reading some of the fics. After all they're a - erm, a GROUP NOT A BAND (my pet-peeve) and the touring-, gang-mentality-, found-family tropes are all in there.
This is a future-fic with lots of pining, misunderstandings and feelings, ending in a three-way relationship that really appealed to me.

[insert witty concluding statement here - today I don't seem to able to write them - see also last posts.]

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Saturday, January 16th, 2016 04:21 pm

[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 12

What makes you fannish? And by that we mean, what is it about a tv show/movie/book/band/podcast/etc that takes you from, "Yeah, I like that," to "I need MOAR!!!" Is it a character? A plotline? The pretty? Subtext that’s just screaming to be acknowledged?
In your own space, tell us what it is that gets you to cross that line into fandom.

I'm not very fannish, actually. I wrote about my journey into fandom last year. I watch a lot of TV shows but I was never so obsessed with one to call myself a fan and wishing to create things for or about it.

There are a lot of bands that I love but don't feel like reading fic about (or only found bad fic for), and I found out about bandom through authors, not the other way round. But fic and the fans on the web made me curious about the real persons behind the stories.
So last year I saw Adam Lambert and Queen live and Fall Out Boy in concert, I'm following the former MCR guys on twitter and I would have gone to see Gerard Way and Frank Iero if they would have come to a venue near me.

When I create myself, fic or art, I need to feel something about the characters I write. And in art I do have to find the people at least a bit attractive.

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Saturday, January 16th, 2016 04:02 pm
[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 11

In your own space, make a list of at least 3 things that you like about yourself.

I'm not good at liking myself. Not sure if that's just a me-thing, a not-being American-thing or something else that lets me shy away from praising my own character-traits.

But anyway....

1) I like my humour. Which is mostly ironic sarcasm, but I find it funny. I learned laughing about myself which wasn't easy.

2) ...

3) ....

Nah, doesn't really feel right. Sorry. Failed this challenge.

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Monday, January 11th, 2016 09:29 pm

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Sunday, January 10th, 2016 08:00 pm
[community profile] snowflake_challenge  - Day 10

In your own space, post a rec for fannish and/or creative resources and spaces. Tell us where you go to dig up canon facts for your fandom, or where you get all the juicy details about your favorite ship. Where do you like to hang out and squee like a squeeing thing?

I don't have many things to rec there. I'm usually reading fic on AO3, looking at pictures on tumblr, following @twitter and getting pictures for my artwork through a search on google.


Go and look at other entries, they're more interesting!